Window

As the rain hits my window
—pane
Struggles with sleep
Not sure if its a late night
Or an early morning
City moving cautiously
Days like these facilitate
Hazardous mistakes
Rain should cleanse the
Palettes of life
It seems preoccupied
Filling potholes in the street
Empty voids
Making it more obvious
That something’s missing
Making walls transparent
Putting misery in plain sight
Blurring eye sight
As the rain hits my window
—pain

Infidelity

Ive dreamt of love the way that it was meant to be
Dates that end like romantic comedies
Obsessive thoughts like that of those reflected
in Shakespeare's old english sonnets
The kind that ends happily ever after
and sees no color like the love in pochahontas

but the only fairy dust being spread in reality
are thoughts that turn into desires
and transform into betrayals
the kind of actions that cause the blood flowing
through our veins to clog up so we become numb
to the promises made in the mere past of our present
till we receive the satisfaction
from the superficial temptations we desire

Infidelity; the only dependable reality
in the loving relationships we seek because
Monogamy; in this age maybe nothing but a dream.

—Just Write

Just Write—

Currently Awaiting 

that moment in time

But every time I’m near 

father time rewinds

Just Write—

Dealing with betrayal 

too often at times

Can’t seem to find the road 

with out snakes in sight

Just Write—

Been sprung off money

all summer Withdrawing 

off times when 

dry cereal was my supper

Just Write—

Brain currently congested 

cause my mentals allergic

To questions left unanswered

with no potential solution

Just Write—

Filling this constant void 

with him this summer

Had me caught up 

momentarily in the end

Just Write—

But then fall 

was a reality check 

and more than just a reason 

to walk away

Just Write—

I’ve lost too many 

“best friends” in the past

maybe thats because they were 

never really my friends at all

Just Write—

Everyone seems to 

let me down

maybe I just expect too much 

from people at times

Just Write—

I hate being on campus now

I feel like a feather 

locked in a tool box 

when I’m there

Just Write—

until things come together

or just seem right 

but they never do so

I continue to 

—Just Write

No One Will Ever

Every moment we shared

Every experience we encountered

Every tear we've cried for one another

will never be forgotten or compared to and

 .. No one will ever love you my way

If your loving for convenience 

If your loving for safety and you think its right

and its making you happy for the time being

then I 'm happy for you just realize that

.. No one will ever love you my way

We've pushed each other to grow

Moved each other to desire more

taught each other to dream bigger

if thats not all the love you ever needed just know that

.. No one will ever love you my way

If your in denial like I and think

 for just a second were meant to be apart

remember that feeling attached to every single 

moment of time we spent together and know that

 .. No one will ever love you my way

What’s Next for Us ((Part III))

I hope you read the terms of agreement

When you take upon the ownership of my heart

Because the shits non-refundable

It will be yours for the rest of your life

I hope you take the time to understand

How much I plan to invest

It is written in the fine print

Pumping through the aorta in my chest

We had each-others love locked down once

On some robo-cop status

Street lights need not shed light on our mistakes

Because the good life we planned not to take for granted

When you checked the box stating

‘I have read the terms of agreement’

And when you clicked ‘I agree’ without really reading

You overlooked my flaws and openly accepted me

No judgment’s at all

Is that where we went wrong?

Because after that I see you in my nightmares

Welcome to heartbreak because the keys of trust were misplaced

We went up to touch the sky came back down and nothing was the same

The password for communication disintegrated

Paranoid in thought thinking that the

Agreements were filled with faults

My fault your fault

Blame game

Waste of time

Because in the end

Through the wire of your mistake

Even with all of the lights still on in this place

You incarcerate the deep limbic system of my estate

In a dark comfort of security without flashing lights to scare me away

I knock you down and look away as I know

That it will eventually all fall down once again

And now we sit here

Lost in the world

Wondering what’s next for us

Because when skimming through the terms of agreement

Neither of us read the end.