Calm Stormy Rain

You encourage poetry

Postively encompassing

All of me

Warm touches permanently

Tattooed on my skin

Calm stormy rain

After an excessively hot day

Thats how I feel

When I see your face

When im in your space

It’s like a dream

Something more than attraction

A bond and im fond

Of everthing you’ve accomplished

You go away

But you don't stray

We’re in this beautiful area of gray

And thats where I’d like to stay

Calm stormy rain.

'DAMAGED GIRL' PROBLEMS

I profess to want someone to call at night
think about in the morning
and text ’ imy baby ’ to when I’m feeling lonely
hold hands with when we’re together
someone that wants to know all of me
love all of me
even the deeper darker parts of me
for un-superficial reasons
but every time i encounter
someone with real possibilities
I run away in the opposite direction
shut my eyes
and demonize all their positive intentions
miss them from afar
and never admit how I’m feeling
I destroy good things before they
can happen to me
I know I’m abrasive
and i know I’m snide
but I’m also scared of being alone
but I’m mostly afraid to be loved.

Kindle Fire

Every time I see it I think of you
How you treated me with kindness
Although I withdrew
How you brightened every moment
And made my darkness fade
Even if just for a second
You erased my pain.
Everytime I see it I think of you
I think of how selfish I was
And how I forgot to thank you
Every drive you took
To see my face
All the things you did
To bring the sun out
When I was living in rain.
Everytime I see it I think of you
And how I ran away
Because I knew
My misery wasnt ready
to let up just yet
I cared for you but
I wasnt ready to love you then
I was exuding to much anger
To let you in.
Everytime I see it I feel regret
I hope you understand that
I wasn't exactly myself
But everything happens for
A reason ...
      I hope you understand.